The words quiet and clarity came to me as I thought about who I wanted to be and what I wanted to call my website, this all back in 2008 after my real estate business crashed and burned and I moved from San Diego to Boulder seeking a new life. Now in November 2019, as I update this page, I realize the words still describe what I aim for myself and wish to share with others.
As I grow older, some things that bothered me have fallen away, and others have become more prominent, like aging and dying. I also see that some people have inherently healthy emotions and thoughts, and others, like me, struggle daily with unhealthy thinking and out of control emotions. As a younger person, I did not realize that my thoughts came randomly and all on their own or that they came out of nowhere and were not necessarily accurate or meaningful. Back then, I believed every thought that popped into my head was critical, required thorough analysis, and dictated the truth of who I am. This is not true. I also got confused by the multitude of self-help, spiritual, and psychological tools that were available as I attempted to find an answer. Only the wisdom that comes from experience showed me that there is no simple answer, and most things are complex interwoven structures. I wish that I could give my fellow humans a simple process to relieve the needless suffering many of us go through, but I cannot. The affliction seems to be a necessary part of our species evolution, at least for now, but I do want to participate and offer what I can.
The most important discovery I have made is that we can change the way we think and feel. Because our view of the world gets created by the beliefs we adopt, many when we are children without adult discernment, we may have ideas that get in the way of our health and happiness. There are tools to help us let go of programmed thoughts and to provide insight that can lead to greater joy and peace. During my life I have used many tools offered by psychology and spirituality, and most have been helpful, especially the desire to pay attention to and make changes to my condition, to ask others for help, hypnosis, and meditation.
Because the site has gone through massive changes over the years and because I am back to making a living in the real estate business, it is a bit of a mess. Mostly I leave everything here despite being embarrassed at some of the things I have written in the past. Who knows what will strike another or spur insight. Probably my favorite thing in life is to provoke others and poke the status quo, even if I am made a fool while I do so. One essential idea of the status quo is that there is a truth, and right here right now I challenge you to explore that idea:
- What is “truth”?
- Why is “truth” important to you?
- Is truth ever-evolving and therefore changing?
- If all humans could be happier under a (supposedly) false belief, and miserable knowing the (supposed) truth, which would be better for humanity?
Thank you for visiting, and I wish you happiness and peace.